There's nothing wrong with wanting a little action. But going out and getting it sometimes feels weird.
After meeting A.J. I put off texting him for a while. I know what it's like to be the guy in that situation... basically you're leaving it up to the girl, and if she texts you, she wants it. If she doesn't, no big loss. And I figured, if I didn't text him, I was no big loss to him. But me? If I didn't at least try this, I'd probably never get the balls to do something like that again.
So I texted him a friendly "Hey, it's Keisha, sorry I didn't text you sooner, things have just been crazy."
And he said "Cool what's up?"
And I had no fucking clue what to say. Like... what WAS up? I was just sitting on my ass trying to work up the nerve to text him. "Just unwinding after a long day at work."
"Yeah me too."
"What do you do again?"
"I fix cars."
And then a little later, I decided fuck it, and just went for it and texted him "I'm naked right now."
I wasn't... I wasn't even really turned on or anything. I just thought it would be funny. I was bored. And suddenly it was like I hit the on switch. The texts quickly got sexual, like "I wanna let u ride my cock, I'm so hard now." Like, it was scary how easy it was to get him to say shit like that.
And just to prove he wasn't kidding, he sent me a dick pic.
I never laughed so hard in my life! Like, yeah, I've seen an erect dick before in my life. I dunno what he thought it was gonna do for me, but okay. Sure. I was up for it. I was flattered, I guess? Like "Cool... I actually got this guy hard just by texting him some stuff."
And I guess I took a really long time to respond to that, because a while later he texted me "Do u like it? Where'd u go?"
And I just kinda lied and said "Yeah I'm so turned on, I started fingering myself."
And he texted back "Aw yeah, get wet 4 me hon"
And then I figured "Hell, I guess I could masturbate right now." Like, I wasn't actually hot for him or anything, but it's really just a matter of getting yourself into that mindspace.
Then he asked me to send him a picture for proof, and I did... but I didn't show my face.
Then he texted me he was keeping that "for future use." Sigh.
Anyway, that was like a month ago, and we've done that routine a few times since then, and he keeps asking when we're actually going to meet up. I keep getting out of it, because I guess I don't want to set his expectations too high... I mean it's good for a laugh, but I don't really like him that way. Every time I try to ignore him though, I end up getting bored and giving in. So we're meeting up tomorrow night. We'll see what happens. I doubt it will be much.