I'm pretty sure that there have been moving trucks parked somewhere on my street constantly for the past two weeks. The profs and TAs make jokes about September 1st being Moving Day because every lease in the Boston area runs from September to August to accommodate the schools, but between all the graduations and folks going from closing dorms to sublets for summer programs, there are a whole lot of folks packing and unpacking right now.
I'm not among them, though - the rent's got to be paid through the summer, and the parents of the guy who left during Christmas break aren't going to be paying his part any more, so I don't have the luxury of working a part-time job with the idea of making spending money this year. Or necessarily going home, because you don't necessarily make Boston rent money working the same job back there.
Anyway, to make it a relevant-to-this-blog thing, it kind of got me thinking about how maybe I've left home for good and only realized it afterward in the same way I stopped being a girl for good a few years back but wouldn't really know until a year or so later. I left home back in the fall thinking I was just going to school, and home would still be home, but it's entirely possible that I've had my last extended period in my own room, and that the house where I grew up was now a place I would just visit as opposed to a place where I lived, barring an extended period of not being able to find a job post-graduation. It feels like a decision i should have made deliberately.
Mom and Dad think it's good that I didn't, that it would have been another moment that would have made them cry. Andie thinks I'm being silly, but she's moved back home for the summer and may actually wind up commuting next fall. Griff and Lindy nodded for a second, not having thought of it that way.
On the other hand, it's kind of nice. I feel like I've slowly spent the past year and a half making this life mine, after coming east to attend the school Andie chose, and if it's not my original plan, I'm mostly still doing what I want, without looking over my shoulder to see if Andie or my folks approve. I'm not doing anything weird or dangerous, but it's been months since I wondered if I was doing something out of character, and even if I love my parents and brother-turned-sister, sometimes just having them around makes me ask the question.
That said - it was hot as shit yesterday, and I still don't really have a handle on when a guy can go shirtless in the middle of the city. Hildy looked way more comfortable in her halter and booty shorts than I did in my t-shirt and cargo shorts!
-Ande
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