Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Trip / Kat - New Frank, Found

Frank approached me this morning, concerned about why he and Dorris hadn't heard from the people who had become them. Frank wanted to know if I could use the internet to find them. I told him I could try.

Little did I know how easy it would be to find them.

The articles I found online didn't provide many details. Just that the bodies were found washed-up on shore, and that the officials speculated that the couple had sailed out too far in the small boat they rented and capsized.

I couldn't tell if the new Frank & Dorris read the letters left for them, or why they hadn't contacted Frank and Dorris. I had no indication of when they were changed by the Inn, or how many days had elapsed from that point. There were just too many unanswered questions.

I know the news has to be bothering Frank - I, myself, am finding it difficult to sleep tonight. I'm kept awake by thoughts of now that Frank has lost his body permanently - what if it's too much for him and he wants to die... what if he commits suicide while he's got my body?

I don't think he'd do that - but... I mean, if you're faced with the loss of such an important part of yourself - and you know that you may have had some small part in "killing" another person - what would you do, what would you feel like. I can't put myself in his place, and I hope I never face the same fate. I can't imagine the guilt he must feel - even though none of it can really be blamed on him.

I just hope that all this does is delay my return to my life a bit, while he and Dorris figure out what they're going to do. I know that sounds crass and selfish, but it is my life, I don't want to be Kat forever... being a girl isn't all it's cracked-up to be.


A.M. said...

That's tragic. I can only imagine how broken up Frank is; and to live knowing the grief this has caused by his friends and family, not knowing that the man they knew and loved is alive... it's hard to fathom.

Kat said...

He hides his feelings well, something I could rarely do in that body. I can see no sign, not even little tells of what Frank is feeling. Even his eyes won't betray him.

Though I wonder if that's more the eerie feeling of looking into those eyes from this body.