I feel sick.
I've been crying off and on since Ka... Pete left Sunday.
It's a huge step, a huge risk... trying to just take over this life and live the rest of my life as someone I wasn't born to be.
Or maybe I was, who knows.
This is just... I don't know.
It's almost like when I moved away for college so many years ago... well, okay a bit different... in a weird sort of way.
Maybe what I need to do is to try an embrace this life, and make it my own.
That sounds so easy... yet it seems worlds away.
I don't know... I'm having trouble sleeping again... and now I'm just rambling.
Maybe I made the wrong decision... I just don't know.