Friday, November 09, 2007

Kat - Scary chills

Field work sure can be different when you're girl.

Used to be that I'd have no problem working the far field until 1:00 or 2:00 in the morning, by myself. Now... well... being alone, at night, 30 miles from home... gets a bit scary, especially when what little traffic on the road seems to vanish and everyone else is on the other side of the field. Even though I wasn't really that alone... it had a way of making me feel really alone.

Add that I still haven't gotten over the feeling of helplessness when confronted with my new size and strength limitations. Yeah, it's an overreaction, but it's frustrating to deal with - especially when I remember thoughts that I'm a more desirable prey than I'd been before. It's probably my self-preservation - Better to be safe than sorry, and I'm still learning the difference.

And you don't even want to know how much of a pain it is when you have to pee. I really haven't had to worry about it until last night, I could always make a pit-stop at the elevator's facilities. But out here, in the middle of a cornfield, everything I could sit on or lean against was freezing, and the wind... my pant leg was wet for the next hour. At least I got lucky enough to find some toilet paper behind the seat. And thank God the heater in the tractor was working great too.

I would complain about missing my old 'equipment', but I can't do that if I'm really serious about my new life, which I am. I guess I'm just going to have to learn how to be a better girl... a better farm girl... or at least, keep out of the wind when peeing.

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At 11/10/2007 8:57 AM, Anonymous kiai said...

Pit stops: you can learn to aim your stream. A post on Slashdot by a practitioner explains how here.

Or pee into a jug with a cup-adaptor, and stay in the cab; that'll keep you out of the wind too.

You can mail-order a belt-buckle with a short blade hidden inside. He's less likely to keep trying if his dick is bleeding-out. You're less like to give off 'prey' vibes if you know this. Practice with it before you need it.

At 11/10/2007 3:14 PM, Blogger Kat said...

I'm not too keen on the adapter thing... and the jug... it sounds too messy. Though I may try the aiming thing - it seems... amusing, at the very least. If it works, it would come in handy next year too. Just seems a bit weird, but not any more so than suddenly waking up as a girl.

That belt-buckle thing... OUCH!!! I was going to say that I'd hate to use something like that on someone, I can imagine how it would feel - but I don't think I'd feel so bad if it was a choice between him or me.

Thanks for the information. It's empowering stuff like that that helps me gain confidence in my new life. :)

At 11/10/2007 5:11 PM, Anonymous kiai said...

Glad you see it that way. Another suggestion - If you go on the Pill, one subliminal worry pretty much goes away: worst-case doesn't include pregnancy. (Plus, if you have to, you can reschedule your upcoming period.)

At 11/11/2007 1:44 AM, Blogger Kat said...

Oh, that worry doesn't go away... it just becomes more unlikely. Still, I'd rather be safe than sorry.

I haven't tried it yet, but I understand that the rescheduling thing is nice. I'm tempted to one of those fewer period pills too, I'm still not comfortable dealing with them. But I'm concerned about the long-term effects... you know, in-case I decide to have kids. I don't see that happening, but what if it does?


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