Friday, November 09, 2007

Kat - Scary chills

Field work sure can be different when you're girl.

Used to be that I'd have no problem working the far field until 1:00 or 2:00 in the morning, by myself. Now... well... being alone, at night, 30 miles from home... gets a bit scary, especially when what little traffic on the road seems to vanish and everyone else is on the other side of the field. Even though I wasn't really that alone... it had a way of making me feel really alone.

Add that I still haven't gotten over the feeling of helplessness when confronted with my new size and strength limitations. Yeah, it's an overreaction, but it's frustrating to deal with - especially when I remember thoughts that I'm a more desirable prey than I'd been before. It's probably my self-preservation - Better to be safe than sorry, and I'm still learning the difference.

And you don't even want to know how much of a pain it is when you have to pee. I really haven't had to worry about it until last night, I could always make a pit-stop at the elevator's facilities. But out here, in the middle of a cornfield, everything I could sit on or lean against was freezing, and the wind... my pant leg was wet for the next hour. At least I got lucky enough to find some toilet paper behind the seat. And thank God the heater in the tractor was working great too.

I would complain about missing my old 'equipment', but I can't do that if I'm really serious about my new life, which I am. I guess I'm just going to have to learn how to be a better girl... a better farm girl... or at least, keep out of the wind when peeing.


Anonymous said...

Pit stops: you can learn to aim your stream. A post on Slashdot by a practitioner explains how here.

Or pee into a jug with a cup-adaptor, and stay in the cab; that'll keep you out of the wind too.

You can mail-order a belt-buckle with a short blade hidden inside. He's less likely to keep trying if his dick is bleeding-out. You're less like to give off 'prey' vibes if you know this. Practice with it before you need it.

Kat said...

I'm not too keen on the adapter thing... and the jug... it sounds too messy. Though I may try the aiming thing - it seems... amusing, at the very least. If it works, it would come in handy next year too. Just seems a bit weird, but not any more so than suddenly waking up as a girl.

That belt-buckle thing... OUCH!!! I was going to say that I'd hate to use something like that on someone, I can imagine how it would feel - but I don't think I'd feel so bad if it was a choice between him or me.

Thanks for the information. It's empowering stuff like that that helps me gain confidence in my new life. :)

Anonymous said...

Glad you see it that way. Another suggestion - If you go on the Pill, one subliminal worry pretty much goes away: worst-case doesn't include pregnancy. (Plus, if you have to, you can reschedule your upcoming period.)

Kat said...

Oh, that worry doesn't go away... it just becomes more unlikely. Still, I'd rather be safe than sorry.

I haven't tried it yet, but I understand that the rescheduling thing is nice. I'm tempted to one of those fewer period pills too, I'm still not comfortable dealing with them. But I'm concerned about the long-term effects... you know, in-case I decide to have kids. I don't see that happening, but what if it does?