The class is on the same building as the language school - I'm not sure how many times I started at the sign over the past few months without thinking that it might be fir me - so it's really convenient. On Fridays, I finish work at about six, run out to grab a slice, and then head back in. Even if you're calling me 23 rather than 16, I'm still the youngest person in class by a lot. About half the class is recently-divorced women from Long Island, one of whom did not take me saying that it was either this or medicine well at all, because I guess her ex is a doctor who cheated on her with a pharma girl.
It's kind of nice to have something to do on Friday nights when Katey and Dad are out with their boyfriends. I'm starting to think that I'm the "A" part of LBGTQIA+, and that the original Monica was too. A few of her college and high school boyfriend have messaged me about getting lunch or a drink while they were in the City for a meeting or convention or something, and they all seem to like Monica and wish it had worked out, but they just weren't a physical match or something. A couple apologized for being impatient because she wanted to take it slow, or getting the wrong idea because she liked running around campus in skimpy workout clothes.
I haven't really talked about this with Dad and Katey, specifically, because I'm not totally sure. Like, I'll be runningin the park and someone will make me turn my head, but it doesn't feel like desire so much as appreciation, I don't think. Dad's not sure i can tell the difference, and maybe she's right, but it just doesn't ever feel important.
And it's important to them! Things are going surprisingly well with Dad and June/Jonah. Dad still really doesn't like getting dressed up or made up, and she's always really embarrassed when she doesn't get home until the next morning, like she wouldn't enjoy being with someone who was a woman for decades and really knows what's going on inside her.
And I want Dad to have fun and be happy, but it's kind of making me feel like a fifth wheel. J/J joined the trivia team yesterday, and Katey is always flirting with Omar during trivia, so i feel a bit left out.l, kind of wondering if the original Monica would let folks at her up because it made hanging out with her friends easier.
Anyway, it's nice to have something to do on Friday night, and I really do think being a realtor could be a really fun job!
- Rusty/Monica
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Congrats on the real estate plan! It's something at least, and sounds like fits the skills you wanna use and enjoyed.
As for the A stuff, while ultimately up to you, all your posts about how you feel about this sex stuff matches pretty well with my own experiences as someone in that area. More gray-ace/demi myself, so like sexual attraction is there but super weak, so definitely get the feeling that you're just missing something or being left out. Remember back in college my guy friends would talk about a girl, or a porn (which I don't watch cause of lack of interest), and I'd just be like "...yeah, sure, I guess?". Like sure, mentally I can sort out who is attractive by social standards, definitely appreciate aesthetics, and in right conditions maybe get a sense of something, but the overall idea of sex just gets a shrug from me. It's one of the things that's honestly generated a little anxiety about wanting to get romantically involved with anyone (cause I still want that at least, though aroace is a thing as well) cause, as it sounds like Monica's past boyfriends have noted, it can cause some friction with people who aren't.
That said, even if you don't exactly wanna talk about that with your dad and Katey, might be worth talking about the fifth wheel stuff. New couples can come off a little obnoxious without meaning too sometimes so a little reminder it's supposed to be a whole group thing wouldn't hurt lol.
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